Nadine mas matapang na ngayon, ayaw nang magkunwari: Hindi ako santa!

HINDI biro ang mga pinagdaanang laban at pagsubok sa buhay ng actress-singer na si Nadine Lustre nitong nakaraang taon.

Bukod sa break-up nila ng kanyang ka-loveteam na si James Reid, kinasuhan pa siya ng dati niyang management na VIVA Artists Agenct dahil umano sa paglabag nito sa kanilang kontrata.

Sumabay pa nga rito ang pagkakaroon niya ng anxiety attacks noong kasagsagan ng lockdown sa bansa dahil sa COVID-19 pandemic.

Ayon kay Nadine, mag-isa lang niyang hinarap ang lahat ng pagsubok na ibinigay sa kanya noong 2020 at nagpapasalamat siya na hanggang ngayon ay malakas pa rin siya at patuloy na lumalaban sa buhay.

“It was really just me facing all of these issues and all of these fears and dealing with it. Wala talaga akong ibang maasahan, I had to go through it.

“And I realized that why does everything have to be so complicated in my life? Like, why do I have to complicate things? I know that I’ve always been that kind of person for some reason, I kind of complicate things, even if I don’t mean to,” pahayag ng aktres sa panayam ng Nylon Manila.

Aniya pa, “So, I learned to simplify a lot of things. I’m naturally an over-thinker, which I still tend to do sometimes, but it has been it’s definitely less than that since then.”

Dagdag pa niyang paliwanag, “Honestly, I’ve never felt more balanced in quite a long time. I’ve been doing chakra healing, balancing, and all that, and I think at this point of my life, it’s like I’m not asking for more. I’m pretty contented with what I have.”

Ayon sa dalaga, mas na-inspire pa siyang magpakatotoo sa sarili at sa buong mundo nang ilabas na ang kanyang visual album na “Wildest Dream” last year, “It’s really just about, you know, being true to yourself.

“And by that you also show everyone who you really are, and not being afraid of it. Because almost my whole life, that’s something that I’ve been afraid of.”

Mas naging matapang na rin daw siya ngayon, “I mean, ever since nag-showbiz ako, it’s one thing that I’ve been so afraid of. In showbusiness, people tend to tell you what it is that you should be doing, how you should look, what you should say.

“Everything is given to you, and it’s kind of them molding you to become someone you’re not. So, that pretty much happened to me. And so now that, you know, I’ve broken out into that mold.

“Now that I am braver, you know, I kind of am braver of showing everyone who I really am, nagtuluy-tuloy na lang siya,” pahayag pa ng award-winning actress.

Diin pa niyang sabi sa nasabing panayam, “I don’t look back anymore because I feel like I’m free, just expressing myself and showing everyone who I really am.

“And I believe it should have been like that from the very beginning. But then at the end of the day, it’s the authenticity that people want,” dagdag pa ni Nadine.

In the said interview, Nadine also opened up about gaining her independence and achieving freedom following her controversial departure from VIVA.

Ipinagdiinan din ni Nadine na hindi siya nagpapakasanta dahil tao lang din siya na nagkakamali at nasasaktan pero naniniwala siya na karapatan niyang magkaroon ng freedom at makapagdesisyon para sa sarili niya.

“When you say independence, it really is freedom. Freedom to do what you, say what you want without anyone really stopping you. Before, there were so many things that I couldn’t do.

“I was branded differently, you know, the usual artista where everyone has to look up to you like you’re a saint, which I’m not.

“As soon as I left the agency, I was able to say no to things that I didn’t want to do. I was able to say yes to things that they probably wouldn’t take me to, but I really wanted to do.

“I was able to dress the way that I want, I was able to put out things that are up to the quality that I want. Before, there were so many limitations,” pag-amin pa niya.

“I’m not going to say it’s easier. It’s definitely harder. The job is five times harder than before because you don’t have an agency to back you up. Now, it’s like, you want to do this?

‘You have to do it by yourself. You have to fund it or find someone to partner with you, no one else is going to back you up financially this time. Mas mahirap siya. But it is worth it,” chika pa ni Nadine Lustre.