Michelle Madrigal nagrebelde sa murang edad: As in self-destructive talaga

SA murang edad, natutong magrebelde ang hindi na aktibong aktres na si Michelle Madrigal nang dahil sa mga isyu sa kanyang sarili at problema sa pamilya.

Ang pagrerebelde raw ang naisip niyang para labanan ang anxiety at depression na naramdaman niya noong kasagsagan ng kanyang showbiz career.

Sa latest vlog ni Michelle sa YouTube, matapang niyang ibinahagi sa publiko ang mga pinagdaanang problema at trauma habang nagtatrabaho sa showbiz.

Nagsimulang mag-artista ang aktres at fitness coach na ngayon sa edad na 15, at dahil dito napilitan siyang magpaka-mature para mapanindigan ang mga ginawang desisyon bilang artista.

“At that time I felt like I had to tumanda or mag-mature right away because of my experiences when I was younger.

“So honestly, I think something really, really bad happened when I was kid, and I think nadala ko ‘yung emotions, trauma, and ‘yung anxiety all the way hanggang sa teenager ako,” simulang pag-amin ni Michelle.

“I think the only way for me to show that emotion kung ano talaga ‘yung na-feel ko because I couldn’t talk to everybody and especially in the Philippines na parang people look down on you or they don’t really open up about certain things and that’s the culture that we have.

“I think the way that I coped up with it was through rebellion. Talagang I was such a rebellious kid growing up.

“Teenage years ko I wasn’t taking my artista life seriously. I was really partying almost every single night. As in self-destructive talaga. Why? To numb the pain,” pagpapatuloy pa ng dating sexy actress.

Bukod sa mga issue ng kanyang kabataan, inamin din ni Michelle na hindi maganda ang relasyon niya sa kanyang nanay noon kaya umalis sa kanilang tahanan sa edad na 16.

“Because I wasn’t able to express that growing up and I guess during my teenage years I was finding ways and at the same time I was having trouble with my parents, my mom specifically. Hindi talaga kami magkasundo before.

“The reason why I left the house as early as 16 years old. I’ve been providing for myself since when I was 16. I think dinala ko ‘yun doon,” pahayag pa niya.

Inihayag din ni Michelle ang ilan niyang karanasan sa showbiz na mas nagpalala pa sa kanyang anxiety at depresyon.

“Obviously, mga personal issues mo you don’t talk about it sa showbiz. People don’t care. They just want you to do your job, to act, work every single day, work hard.

“They praise you for working hard, but they never really ask how you’re doing. Nobody would really ask in that type of industry.

“Even if you share with them, I don’t think it’s genuine. It’s more so they just want a scoop. They just want things to put on the newspapers.

“I guess dealing with that growing up with no outlet, I was really lost. And I think at some point I was depressed I was always always drinking. I was never an alcoholic but every single night kahit pagod ako from work I would just drink because I don’t wanna feel that pain,” ang maluha-luhang paglalahad ng aktres.

Sa bandang huli ng vlog, pinaalalahanan ni Michelle ang lahat ng nakararanas ng mental health problems, na huwag mahiyang ibahagi ang kanilang mga karanasan at ipinagdiinan na okay lang makaramdam ng lungkot at takot lalo na ngayong panahon ng pandemya.

“If you guys have been feeling depressed, stressed, or anxious lately, know that your feelings and your emotions are valid.

“Note that it is normal to feel both emotions and super important to take care of our mental health as it is to take care of our physical health,” mensahe pa ni Michelle.