Nadine umaming natakot malaos dahil sa pandemya: I lost myself, I didn’t know who I was…

INAMIN ni Nadine Lustre na nagkaroon din siya ng takot na baka bigla siyang malaos o mawala sa limelight ng showbiz noong kasagsagan ng lockdown dulot ng pandemya.

Sa taong 2020 rin daw niya naranasan ang “lowest point” ng kanyang buhay dahil sa sunud-sunod na pagsubok na ibinigay sa kanya at kailangang paglabanan.

Ayon kay Nadine, wala siyang gaanong projects na nagawa this year kumpara nitong mga nagdaang taon na talagang halos wala na siyang pahinga dahil araw-araw ay nagtatrabaho siya.

“So, we were all locked in, right? And then I just came from months of like stress, pressure, and all that. I wasn’t getting as much projects. So I had not much work. I was really struggling,” simulang pagbabahagi ng award-winning actress sa isang vlog kasama si Angie Mead King.

Pagpapatuloy pa ng dalaga, “I was thinking to myself na parang sh**t, wala akong work so I might, you know, eventually be a ‘has been’ or you know, that kind of thing.”

“During the pandemic, I had a lot of time to think about what it is that I really want and then a lot of things happened.

“I would have conversations with myself and I would always tell myself to just you know, ‘Take your time. There’s no rush. The world’s not going to end tomorrow,’” pag-amin pa ng aktres.

Kung may isang female celebrity na palaging pinag-iinitan ng bashers sa social media dahil sa pagpapakatotoo niya, yan ay walang iba kundi si Nadine. Talagang bawat gawin niya, maganda man o chaka, ay meron at meron pa ring mambu-bully sa kanya.

“But one of the things that I really learned is to just be me and not look for validation from other people and to just do whatever it is that I want to do.

“If I don’t have projects, then that’s fine I’ll do something else. It’s not that my life is dependent on that,” sey ng aktres.

At kung may isang aral daw siyang natutunan ngayong panahon ng pandemya, “For me, I believe it gave us time to look inside, eh. Kasi the last five years I’ve been grinding lang like every day working non-stop, always busy, no pause.

“So there’s really no time to think what it is that you want and who you really are. And a lost sight of that.

“I was busy and doing a lot of roles and I have people in my ears telling me what I should be, what I should wear. Aside from that, there are people online telling me ‘dapat hindi ganyan, dapat ganito’. You know, putting me in a mold they made for me.

“It affected me so much that I lost myself. I didn’t know who I was, I didn’t know what I want. Parang I was just lost,” lahad pa ng ex-girlfriend ni James Reid.