Suicide note daw ng anak nina Nonie at Shamaine kumalat na
“CUZ, basahin mo ang Tumblr post ni Julia (Buencamino).” Ito ang mensaheng natanggap namin mula sa aming pinsan nasa ibang bansa noong Linggo ng gabi.
Ilang araw na kasi kaming kinukulit ng mga kamag-anak naming nasa abroad kung bakit daw nagpakamatay si Julia Louise Buencamino na anak nina Nonie at Shamaine Buencamino.
Actually, natanong din kami kung may problema sa pag-ibig ang bata na sinagot naming wala kaming alam dahil unang-una ay hindi namin personal na kilala si Julia.
Pero nang silipin namin ang Instagram posts ng dalaga, kapansin-pansin na puro “dark” ang mga artwork niya (na gawa sa water color) kaya inisip namin na may problema ito na sa idinadaan na lang niya sa pagpipinta.
Anyway, nakiusap kami sa pinsan naming ipadala ang kumakalat na Tumblr post daw ni Julia sa internet. May nagsabi na peke raw ito at hindi naman talaga isinulat ni Julia, pero maraming netizens ang nakisimpatya sa dalaga.
Narito ang laman ng kumalat na Tumblr post sa social media.
“If you’re reading this then I haven’t deleted it from my queue which means I’ve succeeded in killing myself. Lemme give you a moment to like put your hand over your mouth or cry or smth (something) I don’t know. Okay.
“This post isn’t about my reasoning for taking my life and all its potential – I’m letting my reasons die with me, cause I’m afraid of being judged for them ha ha how messed up is that. This is all being typed just for the sake of it.
“Mom + Dad: I wish you would have noticed, but it’s not your fault, I promise, I know you loved me, I love you too; I’m sorry for doing this to you guys.”
Sa bahaging ito binanggit sa post ang pangalan ng mga pinaniniwalaang kapatid ni Julia, ngunit hindi na namin inilagay para sa kanilang proteksiyon.
“(Pangalan): I love you, you’re my best friend and you’re such an amazing person and you’re going to be successful and I love you. Never stop writing, please please; never forget to treat yourself with kindness.
“(Ikalawang pangalan): I’m so sorry we won’t have our apartment together. That won’t run to each other in an airport or something that I won’t sing you to sleep again or snap chat you ridiculous things at 5AM, you give me such happiness and I really love you.
Thank you for being my QP, no matter how short our time was together.
“(Ikatlong pangalan): I’m so sorry, you were always there for me when I reached out to you, you always knew what to say, and for that I thank you.
You are so lovely and dear to my heart and you possess such incredible beauty. I adore you. I’ve always adored you. I’m sorry I won’t get to see you to be a mother, get your phd.
I‘m sorry we’ll never drink together. You know I love you. “To the lovelies in hsph, thank you for everything. Good group. Best family.
“To those who will say, ‘I wish I had gotten to know them better,’ and to those who might romanticize me and erase my flaws because I’m dead; ew, no don’t.”
“My name was Julia Louise Buencamino and my gender neutral name was Lee. I was 15, assigned female at birth, and I identified as nonbinary (surprise mom and dad I’ve known I was trans since I was 13). Pangromantic, demisexual, as of this moment, so yes dad I made out with a girl.
“(Yall can bury me as a girl because I know how queerphobic this country is but know that I was never comfortable with being seen as one.)
“I loved the ocean. I made glitter jars to calm myself down. I loved my hair and my laugh. I loved to act and sing. I started tumblr in 2012, roleplaying for rise of the guardians as Sophie Bennett.
“I loved, I loved to read. Sometimes, I was happy with my body. Sometimes I hated it with every fiber of my being.
“I was not a girl. I can’t pick a favorite character in haikyuu because I loved them too much. I stayed on twitter until 3am at least three times a week. I self harmed. I was here. I was too cowardly. And now I’m gone. “Be kind to yourselves.”
Nabasa namin ang mga komento ng mga nakabasa ng nasabing post na puro positibo naman, nanghihinayang sila sa dalagita dahil mabuting tao raw ito.
Baka raw talagang hindi lang niya nakayanan ang pressure sa kanyang kapaligiran. Hindi pa nagsasalita sina Nonie at Shamaine tungkol sa nasabing Tumblr post, kaya hindi pa rin malinaw kung ang anak nga nila ang nagsulat nito o gawa-gawa na naman ng mga taong manloloko.
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