Selena Gomez umaming dumaan sa matinding depresyon, inakalang katapusan na ng mundo dahil sa…
By: Ervin Santiago
- 2 years ago
Selena Gomez
INISA-ISA ng international star na si Selena Gomez ang naging struggles niya sa pagkakaroon ng mental health issues sa loob ng mahabang panahon.
Inamin ni Selena sa panayam ng Rolling Stone na meron siyang bipolar disorder, at sa pagsapit niya sa edad na 20, mas lumala pa ang kanyang kundisyon.
“I’m going to be very open with everybody about this, I’ve been to four treatment centers.
“I started to feel like I was not in control of what I was feeling, whether that was really great or really bad,” simulang pagbabahagi ni Selena.
Aniya pa, “It would start with depression, then it would go into isolation. Then it just was me not being able to move from my bed. I didn’t want anyone to talk to me.
“My friends would bring me food because they love me, but none of us knew what it was. Sometimes it was weeks I’d be in bed, to where even walking downstairs would get me out of breath,” pahayag pa niya.
Inamin din niya na noong mga panahong yun ay meron na talaga siyang suicidal tendency, pero never naman niyang tinangka na kitilin ang sariling buhay.
“I thought the world would be better if I wasn’t there,” aniya.
Naapektuhan din daw ang kanyang mental health nang hindi matupad ang mga in-expect niyang mangyari sa kanyang buhay at career.
“I grew up thinking I would be married at 25. It wrecked me that I was nowhere near that, couldn’t be farther from it. It was so stupid, but I really thought my world was over,” aniya pa.
Nakaramdam din umano siya ng insecurity noong kabataan niya, “I never fit in with a cool group of girls that were celebrities.
“My only friend in the industry really is Taylor (Swift), so I remember feeling like I didn’t belong. I felt the presence of everyone around me living full lives.
“I had this position, and I was really happy, but was I? Do these materialistic things make me happy? I realized I just didn’t like who I was, because I didn’t know who I was,” dagdag pang pahayag ng award-winning singer-songwriter.
Matatandaang inilabas kamakailan ang dokumentaryong “My Mind & Me )” na tumatalakay sa 6-year-mental health journey ni Selena at nagkaroon ng world premiere sa American Film Institute Fest 2022.
“Someone asked me if I feel I did too much and I’m not gonna lie and say that maybe there were a few moments that were scary to offer up.
“But at the same time if anything you take away from this, I hope people will understand my purpose here is supposed to be connection.
“It’s supposed to be helping other people. It will always go back to the one thing that I care about which is helping people. So I kind of use myself as a sacrifice in order for people to have the hard conversations,” pahayag ni Selena sa isa pa niyang panayam.