Isa ang aktres sa mga local celebrities na vocal sa pagkukuwento sa publiko ng personal niyang “mental health struggles,” dahil nais niyang makapagbigay ng inspirasyon sa mga taong dumadaan din sa ganitong sitwasyon.
Ibinahagi ni Maxene sa kanyang Instagram followers ang isa niyang black and white photo kung saan makikita ang tila pagod na pagod at problemado niyang itsura.
Aniya, kuha raw iyon makaraan ang isang linggo mula nang bumalik siya sa Pilipinas at sumasailalim pa sa self-quarantine. Ito raw ang kauna-unahang pagkakataon na naranasan niya ang ma-isolate nang mag-isa.
“On this day, however, I started getting a migraine and my body began to physically collapse. When this happens, I usually get frustrated because I don’t like the feeling of ‘losing control.’
“I started getting emotional and instead of holding back my tears, I just allowed them to come.
“Gradually, the emotions that I had been keeping bottled up inside of me for God knows how long started to surface,” simulang pahayag ni Maxene sa caption.
Pagbabalik-tanaw pa niya, “When I was younger, I used to spend my time running away and denying what I was feeling.
“I turned to partying and alcohol to numb myself from feelings of anxiety, fear, and pain. Now, being in lockdown leaves me no choice but to face and sit with the discomfort.
“Although this can be quite terrifying and painful, I actually welcome it so that I can hold space for my emotions and allow them to flow through me.
“I’ve built a wall around my heart for so long, trying to be tough and protect myself from becoming vulnerable only to find out that it takes true strength and courage to feel all my feelings,” dagdag pang pahayag ng aktres.
Nag-share rin si Maxene ng mga “greatest realizations” niya habang inaalagaan ang kanyang mental health, “Now, even though we don’t normally post these kinds of things online, I choose to be honest and honor my sadness and grief as I understand that in order to live in our truth, we must accept the entire spectrum of life.
“We must allow ourselves to feel all our emotions and not just the ‘good’ ones because we wouldn’t even know what ‘good’ feels like if not for what makes us feel ‘bad.’ #mentalhealthawarenessweek #itsokaynottobeokay,” aniya pa.