Nadine sa paghihiwalay nila ni James: I’m allowing myself time to heal…

HINDI man diretsahang sinabi ni Nadine Lustre mukhang wala ngang  katotohanan ang balitang nagkabalikan na sila ni James Reid.

Inamin ng award-winning actress na nasa proseso pa rin siya ng “healing” mula sa breakup nila ng actor-singer-producer matapos ang apat na taong relasyon at pagli-live in.

Matagal nang nabalita na nagkabalikan na ang celebrity couple dahil ilang beses na silang nakikitang magkasama, bukod pa sa pagkakaroon nila ng collaboration para sa album ni Nadine na “Wildest Dreams.”

Sa interview ng Nylon Manila kay Nadine, naikuwento niya uli ang tungkol sa pakikipaglaban niya sa anxiety at depression pati na ang mga “trauma” niya sa buhay at sa pagmu-move on mula sa breakup.

“Gusto ko noon, kapag tapos na, tapos, alam mo ‘yon? Or kapag may gusto akong mangyari, dapat mangyari na kaagad.

“But now, I’m allowing myself time to heal, to process things. Ganu’n kasi ako before, like in the breakup, which really changed me and my mindset,” pahayag ni Nadine tungkol sa estado ng puso niya ngayon.

“Before, I wanted to get over it to not get hurt or overthink about it or feel bad. We tend to do that just because we don’t want to be affected.

“Again, I wouldn’t say I’m completely healed from that, like I’m still going through it. But this time, I’m allowing the time and I’m not rushing myself. It would take a long time, but I know I’ll get there,” aniya pa.

Sabi pa ng aktres, marami siyang na-realize nang maghiwalay sila ni James. Napatunayan niya na ang “healing process” ay hindi talaga madali at hindi pwedeng pwersahin.

“I used to just completely shut off from people… no closure, no healing from past traumas, including friendships.

“I’ve always been afraid of being left behind. I’m afraid of being abandoned, because that’s how it feels when you’re in a relationship for a long time and you separate.

“It changes you a lot. It makes you feel like there was something wrong with you that’s why the person left you. Before, I would blame myself. I would think to myself, ‘May pagkukulang ako or may ginawa ako,’” lahad pa niya.

Aniya pa, “But you know, I would say I’m slowly ascending from that trauma. You can’t put a timeline on it. It’ll just happen.”

“Of course, I won’t stop myself from feeling sad. That’s also four years of being together, it’s not like I’m not going to cry.

“Before, I would stop myself from crying because I’d think it would only make me more sad. When you stop feeling that or going through the process, you’re also not allowing yourself from taking a step higher.

“If I don’t cry about it, it’s going to stay there, bottle up, and eventually, I might break down and get messed up even more,” chika pa ni Nadine.

Ipinagdiinan din niya na hindi masamang umiyak at maging emosyonal kapag may mga pinagdaraanang pagsubok at problema, pero diin niya, “But when you’re done, you move on.”