KUMONSULTA at nagkaroon pala ng weekly session sa isang therapist si Pia Wurtzbach noong kasagsagan ng pagrereyna niya bilang Miss Universe noong 2015.
Ito ang inamin ng beauty queen-actress sa isang online interview kasama si 2016 Miss Universe Canada Siera Bearchell kung saan binalikan ni Pia ang naging buhay niya bilang pinakamagandang babae sa buong universe.
Sey ni Pia, grabe rin ang pressure at challenges na nilabanan niya noong makoronahan siyang Miss Universe, “It was more than a personal victory. I felt like it was a victory for the whole Philippines ‘cause you know, back home it’s really a big deal.
“And before I competed, the Philippines has always been placing Top 10 or the runner-up positions so, you know, the pressure was on every year.
“Like you didn’t want to be the girl who broke the streak that runner-up streak or the Top 10 streak. So people’s expectations were high,” paliwanag ni Pia.
Aniya pa, “I felt like I wasn’t doing it for myself. I was doing it for everyone or people who were cheering me on. And it did feel like I was really carrying the whole Philippines with me because when I was wearing that sash, it said Philippines. It didn’t say Pia.
“So whatever I do, ‘Oh it’s Philippines did this’. They never say Pia. So I felt like I’ve got to represent and I’ve got to make everybody proud. So there was a lot of pressure. I remember that,” dagdag pa niyang chika.
“But it also felt good when all of the hard work paid off in the end. It’s such a nice feeling hearing your fellow countrymen cheering you on. It’s such a nice feeling seeing them waving the flag and knowing that that’s you.
“Like they’re doing it for you. Most of these people don’t even know me. But somehow, they all believe in me and then that I can do it. It’s a really nice feeling,” lahad pa ng aktres.
Kasunod nito, nabanggit nga niya na nagdesisyon siyang magpakonsulta sa therapist para malabanan ang kanyang anxiety.
“Not a lot of people actually know this, but I actually went to therapy session every week just to like talk it out with somebody, you know. All of these…this is different.
“Like suddenly your life changed overnight and I needed time to absorb what’s going on and really make sure that I’m okay and then I don’t get overwhelmed and that I don’t suddenly make mistakes along the way or like let it get in my head,” pagbabahagi pa ng beauty queen.
Patuloy pa niyang kuwento, “Work-wise, from the outside, people saw that I was okay, I was doing the job. Everything was good. I can’t speak for the other winners, but I get homesick.
“You think about your family, you think about the people back home. And every little mistake you do is so magnified because it’s like ‘Our Miss Universe did this and that and that’. So, I was missing my family that was one of them. I was living in New York. It was fun, but kind of like an adjustment also,” dugtong pa niya.
Naikuwento rin niya ang tungkol sa lovelife niya noong manalo siyang Miss U, “I also had a boyfriend at that time and people back home didn’t really approve of that idea. Because they felt like ‘Oh you’re Miss Universe. You should be focusing on your reign and you shouldn’t have time for your love life yet. You should be focusing on your responsibilities.
“And you know, it affected me. That really hurt me and I felt like I’m very hard on myself. So, I felt like I was letting people down. So, you know, those thoughts. It’s really me versus me. Miss Universe really took care of me and I had somebody to talk to every week who just understood because that what they do,” aniya pa.
Dagdag pa niyang paliwanag kung bakit siya nakikipagkita sa therapist, “Because all of this is something new. Like how many people can say they watched a pageant won by millions of people and you also didn’t win in the conventional way. So it was a lot.
“From the outside, I think people thought that I was okay. But was trying to do my job as a Miss Universe one hundred percent. But I was also trying to, you know, overcome these inner struggles within myself,” paliwanag pa ng actress-beauty queen.